people

why i hate people.
sometimes, you do things for people and what do you get in return? NOTHING, just their shit ass attitude and them forgetting about you the next second. you try being nice to them but then you realize that you're talking to them so much that they could have died from boredom listening to you. then you realize they don't even wanna talk to you, when you've been so close. when they decide they'd rather do something else than talk to you. and sometimes you regret doing certain things you've done for them, but sooner or later it'll mean nothing (even to you). and whose gonna be there when that "person" is upset/depressed? YOU, because no one else will take their crap. But then when you act all upset, they don't seem to realize that your problems are bigger than theirs. but apparently, you're not important, you're just another object they use (for free, doesn't that suck? its like a fucking prostitute not getting paid?) and when fucking people say certain things about themselves like "im dumb" and crap like that, i look at my test scores and what do i see sometimes? hmm... one was 32%, im super proud of myself... and whereas the others get like 90%?? if they're stupid, i must be a fucked up freak of nature in "god's" little play field. and when they say "well, you weren't trying hard enough or didn't study enough" when in fact i was studying 2 hours the day before? haha i wasted my life, and those are the fucking hours i'll never get back. people waste time. people also make you feel bad, haha laugh at my emo talk if you want but when you're all dead and cold from living life to hard, i'll be laughing at you. and sometimes, ignoring people and never talking to them makes you happier than spending your time on them and wasting your breath.

and after reading all this, if you're slow and retarded you've wasted 10 minutes of your life. but if you're normal, i've still wasted your time, just as people has wasted mine.